Such a blessed moment

My husband, Mike, died on September sixth, 2022. Our warm, inviting home, filled with mementos of our love and life together, became cold and hollow with his bigger-than-life spirit missing.

I ran from the pain— my younger sister and I moved to Florida.

The grief followed me.

Having no more dream-visits from Mike, I wondered if I had actually lost his spirit by moving away. The grief weighed heavier by the day.

Last night, as I lie sleeping soundly, I heard him holler, “Hey, wife!” (he called me ‘wife’ most of the time in our life together.) It startled me wide awake. I knew exactly where his spirit-voice came from. Approximately 40 feet diagonally in front of me, to the right, and about 30 feet above the ground.

“Mike,” I breathed. With no answer, I asked, “Are you still here?” Again, no answer.

“It’s okay, I’m just glad you came and reached me. Thank you.”

The manner in which he hollered makes me wonder if he has been attempting to reach me, in the past, but I have not heard him.

I’m so happy to have had another, all-be-it brief, visit from him. It was thrilling to hear his voice again. It was not one of those visits where you hear it ‘in your head.’ I heard his voice from the external, reach my ears. Such a blessed moment.

Close the drapes

My grandmother, who died twenty-five years ago, visited me in dreamland last night.

When I was a youngster, she spoke one day about when she and Grampy would grow old. She worried where they would go and how they would take care of themselves.

I told her, “Don’t worry Grammy. When you and Grampy get old, you can come live with me. I’ll take care of you.”

“That’s good to know,” she said.

The years passed. Grampy died and Grammy lived on for several more years. The day came when she had to go into a nursing home. I worked outside my home and could not take her in and take care of her, but I’ve always felt guilty for not keeping that promise I made as a child.

Last night, she showed me a lot. She lived with me (in my dream visit.) She and I shared a bedroom. She was in her bed resting. I showed her the scene outside the window, with our turkeys and other birds. There was even a black and white cow laying on the green grass. (The cow looked just like those on Grampy and Grammy’s farm when I was a child.)

Grammy and I were happy and loving. But she reached out beside her and closed the drapes. She said she had to rest. And there was darkness.

What did this visit show me?

Forgiveness. I believe she let me know that there were no hard feelings about my not taking her in. She also showed me that she is resting now.

She had to close the drapes and go back to her rest.

My parish priest—in the light

I haven’t seen him in thirty years, however he was a big part of my life for twenty-five years. Revered George Goudreau died nearly seven years ago.

He was the parish priest where I grew up for eleven of my years there and then for fourteen years in the parish where I raised my children. Did we know each other well? Better probably than the average of such relationships. After all, he heard my confessions for a quarter of a century! Of course, I never heard his confessions.

My opinion of Father Goudreau was formed as one forms their opinion of a book on the shelf—by the cover, first and foremost. Then as time allows, one opens the book and reads a paragraph here and there.

Always meticulously dressed in black, this priest appeared to hobnob with the upper echelon in his parish. His parish and rectory were run efficiently and were always in better than good repair. I often wondered if he had not missed his calling.

He took a rather seedy, rat-infested, broken down old home and turned it into something worthy of a glossy-pages spread in Down East. Every nook and corner was perfectly decorated, every seating lovely and perfectly comfortable, every glass gleaming and with every surface dust-free.

His people skills? He knew how to empty the pocket of his parishioners when needed. He organized the best Catechism classes around, probably had one of the highest conversion rates under his tutelage of those interested in the Roman Catholic religion. He had a heart of gold for those in need.

However, he was a bit reserved with folks in general and was not a ‘touchy-feely’ man. I never saw a smiling child run to him with their arms open. He appeared more comfortable with adults, but last night…

Last night Father Goudrean visited with me in my dream-state. He was relaxed and open. No more of the reserved priest. Children flocked around him. He and the children were dressed with beautiful smiles, one and all.

He walked hand in hand with children. He sat on a rock and the children gathered in around him, sat on him, stood between his legs. It was as if it was a whole ‘Sunday School’ in a perfect garden with him teaching and enjoying the ‘perfect-love’ with the children (of God.)

Though I was not part of the circle there, he and I did communicate. I don’t remember exactly what was said between us, but I feel we talked about his mission with the children and his joy in his mission.

I am happy for him…for the children…and for me. Reserved or not, he was one of my oldest friends and I am happy to see him in the light.

Paralyzed legs

This one has me stumped.

Last night, I had a dream of two dear deceased friends. Ruth and Gene were a married couple. They died separately several years ago.

I dreamed I was in a hardware store and discovered they were there also. Ruth was hunting out her desired products. Gene however, was seated on the floor, propped up against the wall, next to the little counter with the cash register.

His legs were stretched out straight in front of him. He looked rather like a scarecrow there. It was obvious that he had no use of his legs.

I sat with him and we talked for a couple of minutes. Ruth and I also talked for a couple of minutes and assured me they were doing okay. She did complain about something though. I do not remember what the complaint was, however.

This was not one of those visits where you know it was a ‘real visit.’

Many folks describe certain meanings behind dreams. I’m wondering if there is not something significant about Gene’s legs being paralyzed.

I have researched it a bit, only to find meaning prescribed to dreaming one’s own legs being paralyzed, but nothing about the friend’s legs being paralyzed.

If any of my readers have some insight, I would appreciate you sharing it with us.

Thank you, readers!

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Another visit from the other side of the veil

A very unexpected visitor came in my sleep last night. Yes another visit from the other side of the veil. But this one, I had never requested or even thought of.

He was the husband of one of my dearest and closest friends. He came to see me, I guess, because he was so sad that his wife died several years ago. I believe he knew how I loved her. I suppose I was a likely choice to share his grief with since I grieve her loss, too.

The thing is, he died several years before she did.

So in my waking, I’ve tried to reason this oddity. I’m afraid, the only explanation I can come up with is disturbing.

Is it possible that this man does not realize that he has died? Is he stuck in that nether-world?

If he comes to me again, I hope I can help him move on. I hope he can let go of the grief and join her and his other loved ones who have passed over.

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